Before, my biggest dread was high school.
I watched older kids solving problems like a + b = x, while I was still trying to figure out the product of 4 and 5.
No matter how I looked at it, I couldn’t find the answer. The thought of having to solve that problem somewhere in the future made me want to stay in grade school forever.
Ten years later, not only did I finish high school, but I graduated college as well.
Thank God.
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Today, the math I am facing is different.
It’s calculating college costs while Jrue has just finished kindergarten.
It’s estimating a wedding budget for nine-year-old Joab.
It’s agonizing over our old-age expenses in our forties.
Looking at my savings rate today, I don’t see how I’ll afford them. And just like when I was a kid, those math problems give me the same dreadful feeling that keeps me awake at night.
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There is a phrase I have embraced recently that restored my peace:
“I’ll leave tomorrow’s problems to tomorrow’s me.”
I got it from One Punch Man.
At first, I saw it as funny, lazy, and even irresponsible. But later I found that it has a profound meaning. It gave me the punch I needed to stop shadowboxing with the future.
Jesus said something similar in Matthew 6:34:
“Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.”
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Tomorrow’s fight will happen tomorrow.
Fighting it today is like the younger me trying to solve high school algebra. I’m bound to lose because I don’t have the right tools for it yet.
The “Level 40 Jed” should not try to fight “Level 60 Jed’s” battle.
What I need to focus on instead are the present lessons:
- Add income.
- Subtract expenses.
- Divide them into budgets.
- Multiply what I have.
Being faithful to today’s short quizzes will prepare me for tomorrow’s final exams.
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Looking back, the equations that kept me awake ten years ago have all been solved. The fights I once dreaded have already been won.
It’s okay if I don’t have all the answers today.
Tomorrow’s me will.
Thank God.